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Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 07:33 am (UTC)From:i was ready to face the same thing that took them
then a stupid experimental device brought me HERE and i
didnt have a way back
didnt have anything
and
no one can help me
bc im weak
bc i want 2 be helped even tho i fucking know its gonna just doom someone else
but nope
nope i keep tryin bc im weak and pathetic and god this is why i was a drunkard for fucking yrs
but they cant help
keeps gettin proven over and over again
ppl cant help when they wont even acknowledge whats wrong
when i even try to explain a lil bit i get written off as nuts or delusional and i
im all thats left
if everything i went thru wasnt real
then theyre not real
and i can barely stand bein told im not real
but my friends
im all thats left
the only 1 who can remember them
i cant take their very existence from them too
ppl believe u
ppl can help u
ppl arent going 2 call u crazy for basic facts of ur life
u have hope
i dnt
theres no help for someone who doesnt exist
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 07:49 am (UTC)From:I'm certain the only way you're nuts is in how you expect everyone to listen to things that you won't even listen to. Which is hypocrisy.
People DO call me crazy for the basic facts of my life. Because I had a home. I had food. I RAN AWAY from it to live on the streets of a planet that kills you with a breeze and that's crazy. Except they don't get the beatings or the scars or the not being fed because I was too loud coming home from school when I was a LITTLE GIRL.
So yeah, maybe I haven't had friends die, but that's only because I never got to have friends. So whatever. Believe what you want.
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 08:08 am (UTC)From:i get it
ur life was hard
i GET IT
but dont u even fucking dare
pretend u have a clue of what i went thru
u havent even asked what ive been through
what u have makes sense
mb its crazy as in questionable if that was the better choice
but its still a concept ppl are willing to entertain as being a possibility
as being a thing that could LOGICALLY HAPPEN
and not just an epic delusion
im not from this universe abby
i was born in 2393
on an earth that was flooded by an alien invader
who wiped out the human race
and centuries later
test tube babies made it so the human race existed again
i never saw my mother in person
she just knew i was going to exist and left me the supplies i would need 2 survive
and some videos
including a fuckton of alcohol
bc guess what doesnt exist in water apocaplyse
FUCKING HEALTHY COPING MECHANISMS
and that's only the tip of the iceberg
now go ahead
tell me im crazy
delusional
clearly im a pathological liar
or so traumatized ive made up stories to deal
never mind the skills i have no sixteen year old should have
or the scars
or the fucking nightmares and ptsd
tell me how i dnt exist like everyone else
mb if nuff ppl do the void can find a way to take me
thats what im supposed to do
make the void do shit for the benefits of others
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 09:08 am (UTC)From:That explains the way you sleep. Or don't sleep I guess. You talk a lot in your sleep. Well, not a lot. But I sleep light. Had to.
Come on, what about that is really any crazier than living on a planet with killer death clouds the colors of the rainbow, constantly at war with other cities, where mercenaries are the law?
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 09:42 am (UTC)From:dirk said i did
we had these other selves we became when we slept
dream selves
i could never wake up
slept walk tho
dirk would drag me back
told me all sorts of things bout me asleep
and how much he wished id wake up
well he didnt rly say that
but we both knew he thought it
bc interdimensional travel is hard
the void is not an easy thing to navigate
confuses most ppl
time and space dnt make sense
plus u kno
whose gonna believe thats found on ACCIDENT
but they did
see thats the worst part
their skepticism isnt unreasonable
it never is
no ones been unreasonable here
like jane wasnt unreasonable when she didnt believe me
bc fucking time travel
bc the interdimensional travel and massacre of the human race is one of the more REASONABLE things going on
so
why do u believe me
its not the sane thing 2 do
and u just said u dnt trust me
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 06:47 pm (UTC)From:Come on, look at the world we live in. Plague clouds. Androids and Gynoids. Hell, there's talk that some planets do genetic engineering. How is it impossible to think that maybe science does other weird things too? Like pulling things out of places and into other places?
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-22 11:25 pm (UTC)From:least thats what everyone else has been thinkin
but its true
science could do that
but there is also magic
...
the game
no
The Game
that shit deserves capitals
called sburb for humans but thats stupid n tryin 2 make it sound harmless
the game is the reason 4 everything happening
the means
the motivation
the powers
all that shit
the game is a mean for universes to reproduce
make more contained existences with their own timelines and laws of existence
probs in giant frogs
callie was hella implying that and if she implied it that means it was probs the truth
so when it comes time to try and make a new universes
a sentient species in an existing one is selected
the species not the players
bc the game makes its own players
based upon the selected species
john did us
made us in a lab and had funtimes with baby us
he made the players
and he made the guardians of the players
him and jane
jade and jake
dave and dirk
mom and me
things got kind of weird bc usually theres only one set of players
but shit went down
john and his destroyed their own session and made ours
so we all got to be guardians and players
i was roses mom in theirs
and in mine she was my mom
we were gonna team up
make an actual chance 2 win this bullshit game
have a whole new universe if we could
and on top of that?
be gods
actual fucking gods with oped powers and shit
wasnt actually kidding bout thieves importance
bc this bullshit game makes it a selectable class for a god
thieves and rogues
beings who would make up a universe
i was a rogue of void
the robin hood of nothingness
which sounds hella lame until i started making things exist out of nothing
ignoring all laws of energy and matter
its why i got kidnapped by big evil corporate lady
she wanted me 2 make her a thing
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 12:22 am (UTC)From:Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 12:43 am (UTC)From:im just not delusional
and no u dnt
the game is very insistent on ppl playing
so part of persuading ppl after they have a chance 2 pick up shit aint on the lvl
is the fact their home planet is destroyed by meteors
if they dnt play
they die
at least thats the usual thing
the time diff between dirk and me with the js fucked that up a bit
but jane was first and jake knew what was at stake for us so
we just had 2 deal with the worst thing that happened in the future
still got the scars from that
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:12 am (UTC)From:Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:19 am (UTC)From:the big one
on my spine
matching one on my front
its weird how vividly you can remember the few seconds of not having big chunks of your internal organs anymore
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:26 am (UTC)From:Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:28 am (UTC)From:yea
fine
sometimes u need time 4 the crazy
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:42 am (UTC)From:I can't be around you after what you did. I get that you've got pain. But I've got my own pain and I've got to look after me.
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:47 am (UTC)From:im suppose 2 be the 1 whose always fine
n i fucked up my job
gotta own up 2 that
Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:50 am (UTC)From:Re: Backdated to late 16th
Date: 2015-06-23 01:52 am (UTC)From:take care of yourself abby
you do have ppl who care bout u and r good 4 u
im gonna go now