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If you were looking for me, you reached me. If you don't know who 'me' is then you didn't reach who you were looking for.

If this is Red calling about jobs, just leave the information and I'll be there.

If this is Sis, then promise I'll get back to you ASAP. If you're got a recipe idea just tell me what it is and I'll look into it.

Otherwise leave your name and message and I'll contact you soon dears.

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im sorry
i lost it for a bit there
come home pls?

Don't worry about me. I have my own place to stay now. Did you get the cat I left you? The stuffed animal one that was pink and glows in the dark for some reason?

2 late
gonna worry
n I did
n I will gush in a few
but where u stayin
with wash?

With another friend. He's promised to help me get a job.

job is good
what kind?

Courier

courier is good work
usually not dangerous
tho
if a job seems suspicious
or payin way higher than norm
please contact me
can totes find out what theyre tryin 2 pull
also good back up

I will, but I don't think I'll need it. See you round, Rocks.

stop
i
fuck
ok is it like
some taboo thing to not do srs talk over text?
movies n shit made it seem like a thing
idek done most of my talking over chat programs

You told me that you know what it's like to be abandoned. How it hurts. So tell me how you felt like it was okay to ditch me for just wanting to be there to support you? For wanting to be your friend?

You told me you wanted to, that you were going to protect me. How am I protected by you running away and leaving me behind with no job. With a man I don't know who really doesn't care about me.

You left me your Mother's scarf as 'a safety deposit.' You said six weeks, Roxy. That you'd keep me near and safe and trust me for six weeks. That I deserved to have people who care and help me. That I deserve safety and a home. That I deserve happiness. You lasted fourteen days. FOURTEEN.

You didn't care enough to even give me the other four weeks before you walked out on me. Like you said you wouldn't. Like you said I shouldn't. I don't know what Medic did to upset you, but what did I do besides call you my friend? I don't even understand.

Nor do I think I care to. You broke your deal. I returned the safety deposit. We're square.

Edited Date: 2015-06-22 05:06 am (UTC)

i wasnt abandoning u
i was gonna come back
i just needed time
space
i just
...
...
...
they died abby
i arrived on adaptive 3 months and 16 days ago
earlier that same day
everyone died
i told u i would probs let u down
theyre why i kno
tho i didnt see it being bc i finally had the break down
suppose it makes sense
thats when everything fell apart
it should make everything fall apart afterwards
amazing i lasted as long as i did
the power of denial is not 2 b underestimated

Doesn't matter what you think you've done.

I'm sorry you lost them. But while your shit was falling apart and you refused to let other people close, how do you expect to be supported?

No. I'm not talking about this. When you want people to help support you, then say something. Otherwise, whatever.

not think
ten seconds
ten seconds would have made so much diff and i

doesnt matter what i want
bc thats reaching 2 high
n its not me who pays for it when reaching 2 high
dirk n i were doomed
if we could have just accepted that then
they had a lifetime and we

im sorry

dnt shut out oquirrh
she is good ppl
does whats good 4 her friends
even if she has 2 sacrifice herself 4 it

Yeah. I won't.

But you? You don't have time for me, so I don't have time for you.

[A very long delay]

if thats what u want
i didnt mean 2 hurt u
shoulda known better
sorry

Nobody EVER means the cruel things they do.

God, I don't even know why I expected better.

there is better
there r a lot of kind ppl here
unbelievably n weirdly kind
a broken girl isnt gonna be the best example

A hypocrite. You told me not to run. To let people help. Great advice.

i didnt want 2 run
i was ready to face the same thing that took them
then a stupid experimental device brought me HERE and i
didnt have a way back
didnt have anything
and
no one can help me
bc im weak
bc i want 2 be helped even tho i fucking know its gonna just doom someone else
but nope
nope i keep tryin bc im weak and pathetic and god this is why i was a drunkard for fucking yrs
but they cant help
keeps gettin proven over and over again
ppl cant help when they wont even acknowledge whats wrong
when i even try to explain a lil bit i get written off as nuts or delusional and i
im all thats left
if everything i went thru wasnt real
then theyre not real
and i can barely stand bein told im not real
but my friends
im all thats left
the only 1 who can remember them
i cant take their very existence from them too
ppl believe u
ppl can help u
ppl arent going 2 call u crazy for basic facts of ur life
u have hope
i dnt
theres no help for someone who doesnt exist

Shut up! You don't know what I had. You don't know what it's like to be a thief on the streets. I've almost been beaten to death more than a handful of times. I just got to find out that someone I look up to is in a fucking coma.

I'm certain the only way you're nuts is in how you expect everyone to listen to things that you won't even listen to. Which is hypocrisy.

People DO call me crazy for the basic facts of my life. Because I had a home. I had food. I RAN AWAY from it to live on the streets of a planet that kills you with a breeze and that's crazy. Except they don't get the beatings or the scars or the not being fed because I was too loud coming home from school when I was a LITTLE GIRL.

So yeah, maybe I haven't had friends die, but that's only because I never got to have friends. So whatever. Believe what you want.

Edited Date: 2015-06-22 07:49 am (UTC)

dont u even fucking dare!
i get it
ur life was hard
i GET IT
but dont u even fucking dare
pretend u have a clue of what i went thru
u havent even asked what ive been through
what u have makes sense
mb its crazy as in questionable if that was the better choice
but its still a concept ppl are willing to entertain as being a possibility
as being a thing that could LOGICALLY HAPPEN
and not just an epic delusion

im not from this universe abby
i was born in 2393
on an earth that was flooded by an alien invader
who wiped out the human race
and centuries later
test tube babies made it so the human race existed again
i never saw my mother in person
she just knew i was going to exist and left me the supplies i would need 2 survive
and some videos
including a fuckton of alcohol
bc guess what doesnt exist in water apocaplyse
FUCKING HEALTHY COPING MECHANISMS
and that's only the tip of the iceberg

now go ahead
tell me im crazy
delusional
clearly im a pathological liar
or so traumatized ive made up stories to deal
never mind the skills i have no sixteen year old should have
or the scars
or the fucking nightmares and ptsd
tell me how i dnt exist like everyone else
mb if nuff ppl do the void can find a way to take me
thats what im supposed to do
make the void do shit for the benefits of others

I...

That explains the way you sleep. Or don't sleep I guess. You talk a lot in your sleep. Well, not a lot. But I sleep light. Had to.

Come on, what about that is really any crazier than living on a planet with killer death clouds the colors of the rainbow, constantly at war with other cities, where mercenaries are the law?

i kno i do
dirk said i did
we had these other selves we became when we slept
dream selves
i could never wake up
slept walk tho
dirk would drag me back
told me all sorts of things bout me asleep
and how much he wished id wake up
well he didnt rly say that
but we both knew he thought it

bc interdimensional travel is hard
the void is not an easy thing to navigate
confuses most ppl
time and space dnt make sense
plus u kno
whose gonna believe thats found on ACCIDENT
but they did
see thats the worst part
their skepticism isnt unreasonable
it never is
no ones been unreasonable here
like jane wasnt unreasonable when she didnt believe me
bc fucking time travel
bc the interdimensional travel and massacre of the human race is one of the more REASONABLE things going on
so
why do u believe me
its not the sane thing 2 do
and u just said u dnt trust me

Why would you lie about that?

Come on, look at the world we live in. Plague clouds. Androids and Gynoids. Hell, there's talk that some planets do genetic engineering. How is it impossible to think that maybe science does other weird things too? Like pulling things out of places and into other places?

crazy reasons
least thats what everyone else has been thinkin
but its true
science could do that
but there is also magic
...
the game
no
The Game
that shit deserves capitals
called sburb for humans but thats stupid n tryin 2 make it sound harmless
the game is the reason 4 everything happening
the means
the motivation
the powers
all that shit
the game is a mean for universes to reproduce
make more contained existences with their own timelines and laws of existence
probs in giant frogs
callie was hella implying that and if she implied it that means it was probs the truth
so when it comes time to try and make a new universes
a sentient species in an existing one is selected
the species not the players
bc the game makes its own players
based upon the selected species
john did us
made us in a lab and had funtimes with baby us
he made the players
and he made the guardians of the players
him and jane
jade and jake
dave and dirk
mom and me
things got kind of weird bc usually theres only one set of players
but shit went down
john and his destroyed their own session and made ours
so we all got to be guardians and players
i was roses mom in theirs
and in mine she was my mom
we were gonna team up
make an actual chance 2 win this bullshit game
have a whole new universe if we could
and on top of that?
be gods
actual fucking gods with oped powers and shit
wasnt actually kidding bout thieves importance
bc this bullshit game makes it a selectable class for a god
thieves and rogues
beings who would make up a universe
i was a rogue of void
the robin hood of nothingness
which sounds hella lame until i started making things exist out of nothing
ignoring all laws of energy and matter
its why i got kidnapped by big evil corporate lady
she wanted me 2 make her a thing

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